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It’s not reliant on someone else.
Yet it’s fragile, you might break it trying to reach for it
You can never hold on to it for long.
I just chatted with my ex today.
Nothing significant, rather trivial stuff really.
But that got me thinking.
I think I’ve gone a long way. From being that emotional, naive, immature girl. I don’t think I’m that mature and I doubt there are things that i’m willing to let go to be that mature. But I think i’ve gone a long way. I guess we just didn’t fit enough for me to have grown in maturity whilst being together, but this year without him has done me a world of good.
I used to be that girl who wanted to be liked by everybody. That girl who wanted things to be perfect. The girl who was easily affected.
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Today we talked about scenarios.
Scenario 1:
You’re driving at 100 miles per hour, there’s a dog standing in the middle of the road. Do you (a) run it over or (b) stop, save it and pray anybody driving behind you stop in time as well?
I would run the dog over and save the people in the car behind me.
Scenario 2:
There’s a shipwreck and a girl, an old man and the ship captain were stranded in one island. In the next island, her boyfriend and his best friend. The captain wants the girl to sleep with him for a night in exchange for bringing her and the old man over to the next island in his makeshift boat.
The girl asks the old man for advise and he tells her to make her own decision for it is her life. The girl accedes to the captains request, sails over and reunites with her boyfriend. The boyfriend finds out about the sex and dumps her. The girl attempts to commit suicide, only to be stopped by the best friend who then proclaims that he’s always been carrying a torch for her.
I wouldn’t pity the girl because she made a sacrifice yes, but with expectations. She should accept the consequences of her actions and also realise that her bf is just not worth it. I think that the best friend was a good man who didn’t try to break them up when they were together and he’s still willing to accept her despite her having slept with the captain.
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Sometimes, I laugh secretly when people think that I’m bitchy or bimbotic.
I’m honestly a very serious person, I take you most literally and I answer most seriously in return. I laugh and joke, but it’s a mask, at the end of the day, if you observe closely enough, you’ll realise that my dialogues with anybody is generally serious and filled with gravity.
Depending on my mood, I either laugh at people stupid enough to be taken in by my ruse, or I’m irritated by their stupidity. It’s all very hoity toity, but that’s what it is. If you judge too fast without observing well enough, then you deserve to be labelled stupid. I deserve to judge you back.
one day i want to write my past self a letter but today is not that day.
today, i want to write a letter to my future self. not very far into the future, merely a week from now.
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despite my telling everybody that i’m lonely and that i need a boyfriend, i’ve come to realise one thing.
i am actually commitment phobic.
i do want to commit but i’m scared. it’s not about if the right man comes along i’d want to commit. it’s if the persuasive man comes along i’d commit. at least that’s what happened in the past. my exes all had to talk to me for a couple of hours to persuade me to be in a relationship.
but of course if i didn’t even like that guy i wouldn’t even let him come near to that.
i guess for me, i see a relationship as something really serious. i want to marry my bfs. so i get scared cos i don’t know if i’m doing the right thing. so i tend to do a lotta running.
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i’m sure this too shall pass. i’ve survived much worse. really. and i’ll look back and wonder why i even bother in the first place.
